Monday, September 08, 2008

 

What Dulls the Mind

It wasn't so much an isolation, looking back, but a self-imposed inability to exist. It wasn't a loneliness, to be lonely implies a desire to not be alone. It was something altogether darker, altogether more distancing and damaging to the psyche.
It wasn't so much an isolation, looking back, but no matter what I'm glad I've left it all behind.
I'm glad I have lived to see better days and more than anything I'm glad that I had the insight and will to recognize my own failings and make better of myself, to remove that self-imposed inability to exist and to feel for the first and last time true loneliness enough to want more than I had.

I am doing well.
I am back.

fuckin' bow down.

these are the thoughts of the badger 6:18 PM